The Ex

January 13, 2009

I have never hated someone that I feel like I want to kick his groins, cut his balls, boil it and feed it to the dog, and to 'poof' him with a magic wand so that he can simply disappear from my life and leave me for good. Seriously - I have never hated someone to that extent - and yesterday's event topples my peace which makes me thinking like an extremely vicious tok mudim.

We were arguing about the same old thing - and I was struggling to get my freaking phone that he illegally took - and he was struggling to get his car key that I took as a guarantee for him to return my phone - that we don't even care if people are looking - and I am near shouting-tone telling him to grow up and stop being so childish and to move on with his life and to stop interfering with my life - and then he walked to the dark alley next to my house - and I tried to grab my phone back - but with no avail - because I'm trying to fight a monster in rage - which is the risk I took that still sent shivers to the spine - and I almost kick his balls - and how I wished I would have fully used my karate-do lessons I took back then.

It was chaos.

The fightings, the blackmails, the threats - and you're telling me it's all about 'care and love'? Shut up! I don't need another 'cerekarama' in my life... Enough with the previous hooca-poocas. Never ever rewind that moment again - it's tormenting!


Just stop ruining my life... Just stop dragging other people in this mess... Just stop blackmailing me with my family. I'm getting tired of it all.

Degil sangat, padan muka aku.