I am so sorry

May 26, 2009

I've tried so hard.

But I'm just not attracted.
I mean, it has no challenge at all.
You just want something and you get it.
Unlike the other one.

With the other one you have to strive, you have to learn, adapt, study, observe. Everything comes with difficulty.

With this one, it's just so simple. Everything is there. It creates no risk. I like the drama. I like the anger when everything went wrong, when "not showing up" sometimes poses a threat to the whole relationship. I like the fact when everything is right again, I will forget every single angry remarks I made. But this one does not give it to me. It bores me.

Unattractive at all.

I'm so sorry blogspot. But despite all the tension and cusses I throw at blogdrive, it makes me learn.

And I am not that kind of girl.

So you will keep on being the 'dumpster blog'.